Demoralised
Oh my gosh! In the blink of an eye, I will be working in this company for close to 2 years and I am constantly bitching about how I much I wanted to get a new job but nothing have been done. Oh well, I did sent a few resumes in hope of searching for a better career advancement. But then, somehow I’m still trapped here. The feeling just kind of sucks big time. People of the same age group as me are earning 2 or 3 times of what you are bringing home each month and still able to go on a holiday trip for shopping spree, pamper themselves with branded bags, spa treatment or hi-tea. They are basically living the lifestyle of a tai-tai where they have got no money woes or whatsoever. What am I doing? Drawing a miserable sum of salary just barely enough to feed myself and let alone splurge on something so expensive or do things I really enjoy (besides eating lar). Bawl!
People have been asking whether if I want to further my studies. Yes? No? I don’t know. I guess furthering my studies is most probably out of the question and it’s because that I will be too stupid to finish my degree course. I admit I’m stupid. 
This is just so scary whenever I envision myself in the next 5 years and I am still sitting in the same old seat doing the same old thing. *arghh* Looking into my bankbook and realise that I have to skip a few meals to pay for bills. This is so darn disheartening. Living in Singapore is not cheap okay? This is especially when the standard of living is so high.
Somehow I think I’m better off being dead because I won’t be feeling so crappy each time I think of my pathetic life. I think I’m suicidal.
Memories of 19th October 2009, Monday, 22:18
Don’t be disheartened, Enard. Keep on sending those resumes and something good may just turn up soon!
come’on Mr Ong will feed you buy u branded take you to holiday okie ~ cheer up dear